Month 2!

Sunday marked 2 months since surgery!  I am done 45 lbs, which is an amazing number for just 2 months in.  My weight loss has slowed this month as month one I lost 31 lbs and this month just 14, but it is still 14 lbs closer to my goal!!  

Month 1/Month 2

With my weight loss slowly this month it has messed with my mind a little.  I started to weight myself more then once a week.   Before I knew it, it quickly turned into once a day, which is something they really encourage me not to do.  My friend Linda told me to walk away from the scale and to trust the journey I am on, it is just hard!  I worried I was doing something wrong when the scale didn’t move and I let my thoughts get carried away.  I am terrified of once again failing.  I have tried so many times to loose this weight, from what I hear it is natural to worry like this but that doesn’t make it any easier.  The biggest thing is to keep going and to keep following the plan that I have been given.  I have stuck to my diet and have not cheated, not even once!  That is 2 months with no soda, no bread (other then at church for the sacrament), no chocolate or sweets (I don’t count my chocolate protein shake because lets face it, it is not chocolate!), no pastas, and no high carb foods.  This in and of it’s self is HUGE for me!!  It isn’t easy by any means as I still crave all those things, but I am 100% committed to this weight loss.  

The things I have noticed this month is clothes that were tight are much looser and I am able to start wearing some of my XL shits vs. the XXL shirts.  Most of my jeans no longer fit and just look sad and saggy.  I have one pair that fits just right and 2 pairs that I should be able to fit in sooner than latter.  By March I have a feeling I am going to have to go through my clothes and clean out my closet. 

(My snow pants were so tight last year I couldn't button them up last year, this time no problem, the pink jacket was so tight it didn't fit at all, this time I was able to wear it!)

It is getting easier to find food that is healthy and taste amazing!  It is also getting easier for me to find healthy things to eat when I eat out such as asking for a burger with no bun.  The biggest is making sure I am prepared for the week and have food that I can take to work.  

My first unwitch, it was amazing!

My naked taco I made at home, loved it! 

BBQ salads from Panera

Cheeseburger with no bun, I was only able to eat a little more than half of it.

  

My energy is getting better and I am finally eating just enough to start going to the gym.  I am still worried about passing out or pushing myself to hard so I signed up to work out with a trainer for 6 months who is familiar with the surgery and what I eat.  The first two months I will work out with them 2 times a week, then once a week after that.  I start next Tues and I am excited to be back in the gym!!  I really hope we are a good match as I have had both good and bad ones in the past.  I also hope that this will help me tone up and keep loosing weight at a good pace. 

  

I am hoping that month 3 is when I really start feeling myself let go of the negative thoughts and can embrace each and every pound I loose a little more.  Bring it!