Month 4!

 

Today marks 4 full months since my surgery.   I am down to 212.1 lbs which is 11.2 lbs lost this month for a total of 69.9 lbs lost all together!  Here are my side by side pictures from end of month 1 and end of month 4. 

 

This is amazing and something I could have never done on my own!  Don’t get me wrong, I am doing a lot of hard work and pushing hard to make sure I don't fail.  I go to the gym, work out with a trainer and I stick to eating what I am supposing to eat, no cheating. 

 

The fact I have not cheating once is huge!!  And trust me I have wanted to cheat!  Having PMS or a crappy day at work I would kill for chocolate or a Dr Pepper!  But I am hanging tough, I might get grumpy, but I am hanging in there!  I am just about half way to my goal weight which is also amazing!  This month was crazy busy and the goals I set for myself were not meet.  I wanted to work out at the gym more but was lucky to get in my training sessions with my trainer.  I wanted to start walking with Thor, only happened once.  I was going to start tracking my food again so I knew exactly where I was at and where I needed to improve, that last all of two days.  I am hoping to kick it up in April and want to meet my goals this time.  It kind of has me worried that this last month, while I lost something every week, it is my lowest lost yet.  I feel I can't complain because 11 is a great number, but it really scares me that I am going to stop loosing.  I know I am on a good path but all I know is failing at losing this dang weight and so that I right where my mind jumps.  I also just see myself in the worst light.  I see every fat roll, my gut, and everything else that us girls seem to see wrong with out self.  It is frustrating.  So time to get out of my head and learn to enjoy the ride while letting myself be happy with how far I have come.      

Goals for this next month:

- Track my dang food!
- Start couch to 5K program
- Sign up for a 5K   
- get to the gym 3 times a week
- meal plan better

Bring it!!